Wanted Visitor.

I come to the edge of your life like an old friend,
always gentle, always waiting.
I don’t bang on the door.
I sit on your porch. I hum a song you once knew.

Sometimes I catch your eye
—in the mirror, in the silence after laughter—
and I smile.
But you look away.

You run to noise, to motion,
to the comfort of beating hearts and busy hands.
You curse me when I get too close,
pretend I’m a thief, a shadow,
something I never wanted to be.

I’ve never taken.
Only received.

But I understand.
The living must resist me—
it’s part of their nature.
Still, I’ll be here,
when your running slows.
When you finally sit down.

And I’ll say,
“I was never far. I only ever meant to hold you.”

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Published by: northwoodn0tes

Hi, I’m Alan, and I’m so grateful you’re here. This space is the result of a long, treacherous journey — one marked by survival, healing, and ultimately, freedom. I'm a survivor of sexual assault and domestic violence, experiences that once left me feeling isolated and voiceless. For years, my mental health felt like an endless storm. But through the wreckage, I discovered the profound importance of genuine friendship — those rare connections, both near and far, that see you, believe you, and stand with you. One of my greatest joys now is sondering — pausing to marvel at the rich, complex lives of the people who have crossed my path and helped stitch together the fabric of my healing. Each bond, no matter how brief or lasting, has been a spark of hope. My story is also one of movement — not just emotional, but physical. I made the leap to Colorado, seeking a new chapter and the freedom to live more authentically. Here, among the wide skies and new beginnings, I am reclaiming joy, learning to thrive, and offering my story to others who may need a reminder that freedom is possible. Thank you for being a part of this journey, Mr. Northwood

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