Just Enough


Maintenance winds the coil tight
just enough to last the night.
Each pill a screw, each session oil,
to keep you moving, fit to labor.
When you expire, they don’t delay—
a new gear clicks and turns away.
No mourning here, no pause, no cry,
the broken tossed, left to rust.
The caretaker hums, wipes down the frame,
oils the teeth, forgets your name.
Scraping metal, shrieking steel,
echoes what the soul can feel.
It knows it’s damned, yet must endure
each tortured turn, precise and pure.
Torqued to ensure no escape.
Creaking gears will call for R&D
adding a few extra drops of oil and filing spurs
enough to mute the clutch – to drown the creaks and aching moans
You can hear it—how the other cogs weep,
their sorrow caught within the grinding teeth.
Every rotation, a cry,
from something human left to die,
Corrosion sets in, cell by cell,
a silent rot too faint to tell.
Each slow, highly torqued rpm
strips the voice, the face, the presence
leaving metal in the place of souls.

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Published by: northwoodn0tes

Hi, I’m Alan, and I’m so grateful you’re here. This space is the result of a long, treacherous journey — one marked by survival, healing, and ultimately, freedom. I'm a survivor of sexual assault and domestic violence, experiences that once left me feeling isolated and voiceless. For years, my mental health felt like an endless storm. But through the wreckage, I discovered the profound importance of genuine friendship — those rare connections, both near and far, that see you, believe you, and stand with you. One of my greatest joys now is sondering — pausing to marvel at the rich, complex lives of the people who have crossed my path and helped stitch together the fabric of my healing. Each bond, no matter how brief or lasting, has been a spark of hope. My story is also one of movement — not just emotional, but physical. I made the leap to Colorado, seeking a new chapter and the freedom to live more authentically. Here, among the wide skies and new beginnings, I am reclaiming joy, learning to thrive, and offering my story to others who may need a reminder that freedom is possible. Thank you for being a part of this journey, Mr. Northwood

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